I'm going to say I'm a lazy person.I admit that,heck,i embrace that fact.So lazy people need some mental preparation before stuff happens.But all in all,I still know that I come through.Maybe i'm only using it as an excuse to why i'm reluctant to bring myself to do it,but right now it seems like a reason to get me through the day(or what's left of it).I guess i'm the only one feeling no pain or guilt,but that's because i cannot stand the words that person used to describe me.No,i mean the word's that person used to describe my significance.If that apparently is all I amount to in that situation,then okay,i don't see the need to contribute anymore. Oh,maybe it's just in a moment of fury or rage,but that doesn't give you the right to jump to conclusion about me or my attitude.I knew laziness was bound to kick in and my procrastination would lead to my ultimate failure or withdrawal from this situation,but i never thought i'd make it through without me once showing my presence.I know where you're coming from because i tried to put myself into your shoes,but the comments you made failed to allow me to sympathise with you or even think for you.Right now,I'm being selfish,I'm thinking for myself.i'm being a total bitch,it doesn't matter since i know and very well understand what sort of phase in my emotions i'm going through now. Maybe i'm saying this to prove to myself i have a right to be angry since everyone else isn't feeling what i'm feeling.But it does not matter to me anymore,maybe tomorrow the guilt will sink in.I hope not.Overall,i feel it was unfair for you as someone of such standard to make such shallow remarks,it has definately rained on my one-man parade,and i assure that you won't be seeing my face around you anytime soon.Well,maybe i'll regret this some time down the road,but i really feel like venting my frustrations.Hopefully you don't read this since i'm a coward and would much rather hide behind ambiguous words and characters to conceal my true thoughts when i'm communicating with you.

I refuse to use vulgarities in this post due to the fact i'm not at that point of rage but am actually disappointed and frustrated.I feel at some degree betrayed.Your naive actions has cause me this intense irritation with you,and i hope that you'll learn from your immature actions.Obviously I mean nothing to you,so my words are like a drop of water in the open sea, since there are many others who you can turn to that will not let you down like what i apparently did.

Whatever,i wish you good luck in your hopes and wishes,just don't count on me being one of those people who made them come through.

Oh well,i'll just look forward to my macs meal tmr (: