Although today was a generally very happy day,i feel rather loser-ish.
I don't know why.Maybe it's cause i've been overloading my brain with lovey dovey songs? Haha.All the songs i'm listening now are rather emo-love-ish.Funneh.But i love their lyrics dude.

You people must listen to :
Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift - Maybe 2 is Better Than 1
Miley Cyrus - Obsessed
Demi Lovato - Catch Me

these songs are beautifully written (;

Why do I just lie awake and think of you?
I need some sleep.
Tomorrow I have things to do.
Everytime I close my eyes I see your face,
so I try to read, but all I do is lose my place

Am I obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you.
But I do all the time.
I do all the time.

I just had to call you up and say hello.
I know it's 3 AM.
And I saw you awhile ago.
But I still had this aching pain to hear your voice
To know your there I don't seem to have any choice.

Oh yeah. I'm so sorry I just had to wake you up.
I feel so lonely by myself.
Is this the way it feels when you're in love?
Or is this something else?
Yeah.



Honey,you don't know the half of it

haha.i think people might get the idea i'm weird and blah,but whatever. This is actually a decent and quite nice video!Honestly,i think the song from Selena is much better than Miley cyrus,although miley does have a better vocal range.However,none of them can really compare with Demi Lovato. ;D omg,speaking like this makes me feel like i'm some disney fan.LOL. go watch the video!You'll like/love the song!

Today was a rather happy day for me :D Teehee,i think Joanne,Yanlin and Vivien know why. :DDDDDD I left class at 12 to change to no.4 as i had to accompany my cute lil' part a's to some weird interactive battlefield poop. It was something like the one in spec course cept' that it was a newer version of the samsung omnia and this time it was longer.way longer dude. Initially i thought i'd go there and slack a bit,but in the end i went running/walking in a rather pace.haha. It was quite fun,despite my splitting headache (: And i know i'll lose weight from that! Happy. (;

I must stop swearing/cursing/cussing.It's a horrible habit!i must must must must stop it. i'll do it slowly,like i'll stop saying "f--k" first,then i'll continue to those really small swear words like "sh-t". (((; must perservere!

I am trying

Oh I Just Can't Take It
My Heart Is Racing
The emotions keep spinning


haha,i think the "fallin for you" part is so relevant to last year.(; the rest is pretty true. What a nice song <3

I'm super disappointed with my results.No,i'm disgusted at it.I must be really stupid or something.What the hell okay.All my subjects have a B average(usually a B4). Honestly,i feel quite ashamed to tell my tuition teacher.Worst of all,it's like I have tuition and they don't and yet they do way better.I must be really dumb or something.I'm so irritated.

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you're getting sick of it

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now from things they never found
They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down


It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in

Frankly,i'm quite disgusted by the way some peopl are acting.People always say "communication is key"in the face of conflict but i think when they say that,they don't mean communicating by msn,they mean face-to-face talk.I think it's ridiculous (from what i say by your tweets) that you're obviously communicating by MSN and sometimes the statements you make are rather funny.Honestly,i think that i'd rather settle something by talking face-to-face and if i were the one in this situation i'd be so damn honest about it.Are you afraid of hurting her feelings? If you are,then that means you still think of her as a friend.But if you aren't then just tell her the goddamn truth.I don't get why people are so stupid.I really just want to go up to that person (the victim) and tell her everything,cause i've had enough of everyone's stupidity and immaturity.You can say that i'm biased,but i'm merely putting myself in that person's shoes. I don't want to backstab anyone that's why i don't want to utter a word to that person,but i think some time should be set aside for everyone to talk it out. This is shit in my opinion. Although it doesn't even concern me,but i'm feeling pretty sick of this constant cycle of conflict. I'm not clever or mature or whatever but please, Just Grow The Fuck Up.


suck it up and move on.

EW.I just went to some loser secondary 2 girl's blog where she and her bf were proclaiming their love -gags- for each other.That's so disgusting dude! I mean maybe she's not doing it for the attention and blah,and it's meant to be okay since i or anyone else besides her friends are not suppose to read it,but honestly,it was like UHHH. As though proclaiming your apparent "deep, neverending" love for each other once is not each, those weirdos went to post a photo of them kissing. What the fuck. Give it another 4months or so and next they'll totally break up.

You can accuse me of being 'jealous'(ew i must have stooped down to such a loser level if i actually am dude) or you can say that i should leave them alone or that they're "just having fun",but omfg, it's so AA (attract-attention) Not like they're ugly or something, but i think it's rather stupid to say (in really bad english phrasing), "Bi...I miss you...2more days till i see you"
or even "Bi,i love you,no words numbers quotes phrases (blah blah blah) can measure my love for you". <<< EW. I don't really think their love is real okay, it just sounds so in the moment.And if they last,then good for them and i'll be wrong (boo hoo).



i bought a chocolate perfume today. imma loser. oh well. (;

Today I finally got my much needed exercise by playing Basketball at the court near Vivien's house.Finally doing something besides studying is rather fulfilling, I feel my fats slowly(very very very slowly) melting away.I really hope vivien wil invite us again! Her brother,Delvin(?) was super cute, i bet he was totally irritated when i kept asking him to hold me as I attempted to ride that 1/2 skateboard thingy.Falling hurts you see. );

Gah,when i got home i was greeted by infuriating incidents.Sometimes i really want to take back the words or the actions that i say or do.It sucks when i go all "i regret saying...." To me it's disgusting, I'd would never want to speak like this to anyone or if anyone did that to me I'd be extremely hurt.Gah!I must learn how to manage my anger(and weight)
teehee.

Physics paper today was horrible,though for the first time in 8months i finally understood most of the questions! Yay for improvements ;p Tmr we're getting back the e-math paper,which is super scary.I don't wanna fail or like get anything under a b3 for any subjects! >< Oh well,beggers can't be choosers,i'll just settle for anything over 60 :D hahaha. lying to myself consoles me.

fuck you.you selfish piece of shit.one day karma will hit you right on your fuckin' dick.And when that day comes,no one will save you.more like no one will be willing to save you.Go fuck away luh,like how you will soon fuck your life,money,everyone around you,freedom and love away. __

We've only got 1 more test everyone! (: yay. The week past unusually fast though i'm not complaining. Today's papers were relatively alright,not really difficult.But now i must tell myself to memorise for Biology,i can't just plainly read.We just have physics left! (: though that's like my worst subject since i can't do physics for nuts.

I'm watching Sweeney Todd : Demon Barber of Fleet Street. I think it's pretty alright,very wacky. Johnny Depp's singing is giving me goosebumps though. Jamie Campbell Bower is HOT :D He's totally english,capable of singing and acting. (((((: eyecandy to the max

teehee. i love cute english guys.

I'm utterly disgusted at myself.After _ _ _ _ _ _ _ told me about her and blah,i felt super sad for myself. Ew,i actually want a bf pls. Which in my opinion is such a desperate statement.That's why i'm disgusted.I can't believe i would actually feel this way okay.What the hell is wrong with me. Gah.I bet everyone thinks i'm a despo.This sucks to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Damn everything.I hate this disgusting feeling.And even if i want one,i obviously can't get any,cause i'm not pretty/cute/air headed like everyone else is.Shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.you stupid girl.

When I saw you over there
I didn’t mean to stare
But my mind was everywhere
I wanna know you

You smile, never shout
You stand out in a crowd
You make the best of every situation


today i watched Up!You guys should totally watch it okay.It's like super fabulous.I absolutely love it. The best movie i've watched.(: haha.I love Russell,i think he's ultra cute. Go watch it you guys!

I feel really bored since i can't play fish a fish on FB. );

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever, but now it's over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
Were spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl you make me such a rush

Now its over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now Its over




absolutely lovely (;

I just had the best Japanese food :D Though the price was ridiculous,but it was totally worth it.
Teehee.
I refuse to look at the weighing scale tmr though.haha

Today i realised that when i get children i will totally give them cool names.Haha.Like i'll totally name them after constellations,cause constellations have the weirdest,coolest and most lovely names ever. I think it's pretty weird to think about this now,but a girl can plan right? (;

gah i hope that thing is settled now or next week please. Or else i'd have to go totally bitch again and be super direct to whoever.I mean c'mon people,no one is that stupid,everyone can see your hidden agenda pls.Hope it'll be fine and we all can be happy again :D


to claud: my dear i'm not angry at you ((((((; and even if i was,i'd totally show you my "anger".haha.Don't apologise already :D y'know i still love you luhh.teehee x)