;D

I'm Not Living Without You

2010-03-06T02:06:00.000-08:00

I love the Liam and Naomi couple in the 90210 series man! I totally hope the writers/director/blah doesn't kill their relationship cause they're so cute together.haha.

Gna watch Alice in Wonderland later! I should be doing my maths tuition homework but i dont feel like it ):

Strange As It Seems You're The One I'm After

2010-02-27T08:20:00.000-08:00

HELP ME.
I absolutely hate liking someone,especially someone that I'm not supposed to like.Gah,it's strange seeing as previously I was denying that any feelings for him would ever appear.It's so frustrating.

Stoopid Pui Kay's right D; i AM in denial.
I'd rather stay in denial.Cause then I wouldn't have to admit to anyone but myself that I was wrong and make myself appear stupid/dumb/desperate(some might say).

I HATE IT.WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.stupid matters of the heart.The only place my heart should be is buried under piles of books and notes. Seeing that my desired soulmate right now is the O level slip that has the glowing,'attractive' look of all A's.

Gah,EFF.Now someone has unknowingly rubbed salt into my nonexistent-in-denial wound. HOW DOES SHE DO IT?I must be one heck of a loser man.

Side note:TBH,i don't really care about the (sad) amount of people that read my blog(As in I don't care how many people read,I still care about the people that read it) So whatever that my blog only gets 1 or 2 views by bored people(I'M LOOKING AT YOU PUIKAY.teehee),I ain't looking for thousands of readers man.And if I was,I'd be advertising my blog's address on my msn/twitter/fb.But instead,I choose the quieter and lonelier option of writing when I feel like it and having no constant feedback to help "steer"me past any obstacles that I (most likely) am and will be writing about.

STUPID FEELINGS.

DJ Blow My Speakers Up

2010-02-01T06:53:00.000-08:00

Hello pearlyn and other bored people who are checking my blog for "regular" updates.

((; Mos-ed with Joanne today and I feel super fat since I ate heckloads of food D: oh nooo. Haha,despite the fats gained,it was really fun.I think that if people actually heard the contents of our conversation they'd be shocked and would mostlikely burst in laughter.Yes, it's THAT funny.
Joanne was and still is attempting to fuel my non-existent love life with her fantasies of me and blank.
Which is really quite funny for me.

Boys Like Girls last thursday was the BOMBXZXZ. Despite many uncivilised people, I still had a blast.Wifey(claud) and I were hooked arm in arm at first,but we were pulled apart ): Oh well,at least i caught a fantastic view of them! I was like infront of all the pathetic people who attempted to push their sorry ass infront.Too bad for them they had to go through me! Cause man, I get really defensive over my "spot".I elbowed,pushed,pulled people's hair,stepped on their feet and kicked them in their legs for ATTEMPTING to go infront of me. L.O.S.E.R.S.
I defended my spot well people.

However,the whole situation makes me less enthusiastic about ever going for a standing concert.Yes, people might say that it's much more fun to be standing below them.But honestly, i just wanted to appreciate their music and actually be in the prescence of all these bands. The pushing-tugging-pulling scene isn't really my thing cause it just gets me all too distracted from the band's vocals and talents. Honestly,I don't remember what they sound live since I was too caught up shoving the losers around me away.

Oh well,it was still awesome overall!

History test tmr ): Wish me good luck!

2009-11-13T08:42:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe Beyonce's single ladies won Video of the Year in the EMA (europe music awards) Honestly, i love the song single ladies,but the video wasn't great. It was simply made, white background,video in black and white and 2back up dancers pracing around with Beyonce. I do not see how that video deserved to win! It's like pathetic man.I bet if some unknown person or less famous musician made it like that no one would give a shit.Oh,but since it's Beyonce then let's just throw her the award.It' quite stupid actually. How much did it cost? Few thousands? All it needed was nice clothes,white paper and some person to teach her the dance steps. Even Shakira's She Wolf deserved it more the Single Ladies! Maybe Beyonce's song is better,but She wolf looked like much more effort was put into it than Single Ladies.It's horrifying how people vote.

Damn,i'm going to m'sia tmr. Much to my reluctance.My parents gave me an option to go or not but feeling guilty and blah,I said I'd go. Boo ))):

Hungryyyyyyyyyyyy.

I Just Wanna Be Happy

2009-11-12T07:42:00.000-08:00

hmmm,i'm contemplating getting an Ipod Touch. Should I? ((((((;

I'm totally hooked onto 3OH3!'s Starstrukk feat. Katy Perry. It's a real good song man. Well,today I watched the Ugly Truth on Youtube! It was a rather sick movie.Vibrating panties.haha.Ridiculous.Overall I thought it was a good movie.I love those love-hate relationships.Darn,I'm sucker for romantic comedies!

I attempted to watch Twilight yesterday,since I had sort of corrected my view of Kristen Stewart.However,it was a failed attempt.I only made it through half of the movie before I felt like dying in the presence of pathetic robert pattinson's acting.Actually,i don't think it's his acting that I've got a problem with.It's more about him playing Edward.I don't think he should be Edward.Honestly,if I saw him walking down a street I won't turn my head or like drool or smth. I actually think I'd turn to my sister and say "omg,that angmoh is so......(fill in the dots)" Haha.Loser.I still stand by my opinion that Chace Crawford would make a perfect Edward Cullen. Oh,while watching E news just now,Ashley Greene(Alice from twilight) made a delusional comment. She said "if we( Harry Potter and Twilight Vampires) were battling,we'd totally kick their butts." I love her and all,but I think she's either lying to herself or maybe the hordes of confused screaming girls has caused her brain to become completely warped. Harry Potter has actors who can act,a good plot,they have magic and wolves that look real!While Twilight on the other hand has a shit ass plot,pathetic actors/actresses (who are supposedly gorgeous) and can only hold it's own with it's deluded fan base who actually don't give a shit about the story but only the looks of Edward. I'm sorry,but it seems Harry Potter can kick their pathetic asses anyday. Unless Edward succeeds in charming Hermoine or something,then maybe there will be some kind of fight.Other than that,no competition man.

It may come to you-less-than-five-people-who-read-my-blog as a surprise that I will be going to the cinemas to watch New Moon. Hypocrite you might say.But I'm merelt supporting the new director who seems to have brought New Moon way higher than constipated Twilight.Another reason is that I'm a fan of Taylor Lautner and he's hot,so I'll watch it.(Here,I contradict my previous paragraph but oh well.I've got a lil fangirl in me somewhere too right.)

pooop.go play gold miner on FB.It's fun.haha

We Should Make Pot Cookies

2009-11-11T08:15:00.000-08:00

I've just watched Adventureland.It's some indie movie starring Jesse Eisenberg,Kristen Stewart(twilight girl.) and Ryan Reynolds(the deadpool guy :D ) It was better than I thought it would be. It's like the first time I've seen Kristen Stewart ACT. Her performance in Twilight shouldn't even be called acting.She proved me wrong in this movie though.Finally an excuse to not make me want to criticise her.Haha.Now all I need to see is Robert Pattinson "act" without wanting to slap him in the face.Oh wait,there was his performance in Harry Potter which was pretty good. If only he could bring that kind of 'skill' into playing Edward Cullen.

Sadness+Frustration+Depression = Huay Yee Losing Weight.

After I emo-ed yesterday (it's still ongoing though), I managed to lose 2kg.Wow.I still don't feel happy though.Shit this luh.I'm so pissed at myself.FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

LOL.Adventureland makes me feel that the word "fuck" isn't vulgar.ha.

It's Much Better To Face These Kinds Of Things With A Sense Of Poise And Rationality

2009-11-10T02:13:00.000-08:00

I'm going to get a bloody B4.I doubt I can even get a B3 with my pathetic abilities during chinese O levels today.I'm so frustrated,irritated and disappointed.Why the hell did I take my own sweet time during paper 2.If only I rushed abit more I would've got time to check with would mean I wouldn't have made the disgustingly careless mistakes that I bet I made. Fuck luh.If those shit things cost me like a grade, I'll be devastated okay.This sucks to the core cause I know that I could've done so much better.Honestly,like much much much better.I want to get an A2.I really do.It just sucks to know that I obviously didn't do my best during this paper since I was affected by a stupid headache which came from 2hrs of sleep.Shit this okay.I CAN'T EVEN GET A BLOODY A FOR CHINESE,I SHOULD LIKE GO AND DIE.FUCK LUH.

What Would My Mama Do?

2009-11-03T22:48:00.000-08:00

haha,i've finished one bao zhang bao dao today! and i've still got 3 comprehensions to do. I hope I don't get distracted since i've got my laptop on while doing homework.Ironically,i'm still on blogger so obviously i've devoted my attention to something other than homework. Poof.

I think _ _ _ _ _ _ is cute man. I think Jasmine should know who i'm talking about.Teehee. At least he'll be someone who i can spazz over to take my mind off loser _ _ :D

Into The Rush

2009-11-02T07:26:00.000-08:00

A sugar rush that is! That's what state Joanne and I were in during the Hort Park CIP.Things got a little crazy and we started waltzing.Hopefully we didn't scare away any potential recyclers!

I'm really angry now.Not angry at anyone in particular but angry at myself.How could I throw my pride down just like that.It's totally not me.I'm disgusted at the way I've handled the whole thing.I'm rather ashamed of myself to be honest,like I would never do such stupid,desperate acts if I were thinking clearly.This is horrifying.I'm so stupid.Why would I ever ___ such a person who is so..........and doesn't even.........and has never....... I'm mortified at my ways.I really hope I can quickly get this over and done with so i can carry on with my life.I hope I don't ever act this way ever when i ____ a ____.

DDDDDDDD;
Pui Kayyyyyyyyyyyyy. ):i want to talk to you now.But I know you're sleeping ):

i can't be bothered to check my grammar/spelling/whatever in this post since i'm too irritated with my pathetic self.

You'd Think Me Rude,But I Would Just Stand And Stare

2009-10-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

Claudia Ng you Poop,you made me want to find out what "fireflies" was so i downloaded the song and now i'm hooked. I don't like you ):

Once again,cowardice has kicked in and I am left speechless and confused.
I'm like the ultimate failure.
Huay Yee=Loser
(so been watching too much communitychannel on youtube)

Physics SPA on thursday,i'm sort of kind of nervous,physics has never been my area of confidence you see.I hope i don't screw it up.Hopefully Mr Peh will be the one invigilating the girls cause Mr Wee's presence fuels immediate irritation and it will lead me to have an intense urge to slap him,hard,on his face.

I sinned today.I ate macdonalds.Breakfast.I had this strong craving to have hotcakes last night and since my brother didn't go to school,i ordered breakfast for me and him.It was so good :D A period of time after,I had chinese tuition,i nearly died from exhaustion,my eyes were like blurry and i couldn't think straight.I bet my chinese teacher wanted to slap my face.

There's school tomorrow.My life's been pretty boring.I can't wait for chinese o levels to be over so that this horrid feeling of burden/nervousness will get off my chest.On the other hand,i hope i've got enough time to prepare for it since i've been slacking off and there's heaps of stuff waiting for me to file.Gah,help me god :D I want an A2.I'm not even going to stretch my limits and ask for an A1.Hopefully i'll get the A!You'd see me doing imaginary cartwheels if i achieve that grade okay! If i get a B3 i'll cry and cry and cry. And then beg my mom to send me overseas so i do not shame the rest of the family ):

I'm not tired at all and I bet I'll gain weight.

And I'm trying not to swear (: Because I don't want vulgarities to be a regular part of my vocabulary as if it accidentely slips out of my mouth during an important conversation,I'll be doomed!I shall get rid of such words! (or at least try to)

Goodbye to the less-than-5 people who read my blog (:

Got You All Fired Up With Your Napolean Complex

2009-10-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

I'm going to say I'm a lazy person.I admit that,heck,i embrace that fact.So lazy people need some mental preparation before stuff happens.But all in all,I still know that I come through.Maybe i'm only using it as an excuse to why i'm reluctant to bring myself to do it,but right now it seems like a reason to get me through the day(or what's left of it).I guess i'm the only one feeling no pain or guilt,but that's because i cannot stand the words that person used to describe me.No,i mean the word's that person used to describe my significance.If that apparently is all I amount to in that situation,then okay,i don't see the need to contribute anymore. Oh,maybe it's just in a moment of fury or rage,but that doesn't give you the right to jump to conclusion about me or my attitude.I knew laziness was bound to kick in and my procrastination would lead to my ultimate failure or withdrawal from this situation,but i never thought i'd make it through without me once showing my presence.I know where you're coming from because i tried to put myself into your shoes,but the comments you made failed to allow me to sympathise with you or even think for you.Right now,I'm being selfish,I'm thinking for myself.i'm being a total bitch,it doesn't matter since i know and very well understand what sort of phase in my emotions i'm going through now. Maybe i'm saying this to prove to myself i have a right to be angry since everyone else isn't feeling what i'm feeling.But it does not matter to me anymore,maybe tomorrow the guilt will sink in.I hope not.Overall,i feel it was unfair for you as someone of such standard to make such shallow remarks,it has definately rained on my one-man parade,and i assure that you won't be seeing my face around you anytime soon.Well,maybe i'll regret this some time down the road,but i really feel like venting my frustrations.Hopefully you don't read this since i'm a coward and would much rather hide behind ambiguous words and characters to conceal my true thoughts when i'm communicating with you.

I refuse to use vulgarities in this post due to the fact i'm not at that point of rage but am actually disappointed and frustrated.I feel at some degree betrayed.Your naive actions has cause me this intense irritation with you,and i hope that you'll learn from your immature actions.Obviously I mean nothing to you,so my words are like a drop of water in the open sea, since there are many others who you can turn to that will not let you down like what i apparently did.

Whatever,i wish you good luck in your hopes and wishes,just don't count on me being one of those people who made them come through.

Oh well,i'll just look forward to my macs meal tmr (:

Never Seems Like An Awfully Long Time

2009-09-20T10:26:00.001-07:00

I just watched Peter Pan(the live action film) and i balled my eyes out (once again),hahah.It's like my first time watching it and stuff,and i think it's a really superb movie.You may think i'm a loser for watching such a "childish" show,but whatever, it's nice and I like it. :D go watch it!

After watching it,it made me think about a lot of things.Like honestly,i really don't want to grow up.With the impending examinations and O level chinese exam,it seems students and poeple have nothing fun to look forward to except when they score a good grade or when their exams are over. It really sucks and i think life is pretty boring now. Gah. Nostalgia + A lot of other things = BLAHHHHHHH + Tears. haha.

My life is about as exciting and interesting as a goldfish swimming in a fishbowl.It's all so routine and you'll forget most of the things as they truly are unimportant if you look back. I don't know,but it's time like these that make me think how fun it'd be like if we could turn back time and enjoy the things we used to enjoy.
)))));

oh well,life goes on.

"But the window is closed."
"Then I'll open it."
"It has bars."
"Then i'll call out to her."

Make My Own Way

2009-09-05T06:50:00.000-07:00

hmm? are you talking bout me?

thank god i ain't gna be there.

Figure Out The Rest Of My Life

2009-09-01T07:11:00.000-07:00

Today i watched some nice movie on youtube, it's called "Keith".What a tear jerker!I watched it and balled my eyes out.Jesse McCartney is so cute! He reminds me of Leonardo Dicaprio like from 10years ago.haha.If only Jesse remained blond,he'd look so hot!You guys should totally watch it yeah. I think the plot was rather nice and that it actually sent a message. Very nice.

i don't think you know,but you make me so happy. (;

Two Is Better Than One

2009-08-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

Although today was a generally very happy day,i feel rather loser-ish.
I don't know why.Maybe it's cause i've been overloading my brain with lovey dovey songs? Haha.All the songs i'm listening now are rather emo-love-ish.Funneh.But i love their lyrics dude.

You people must listen to :
Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift - Maybe 2 is Better Than 1
Miley Cyrus - Obsessed
Demi Lovato - Catch Me

these songs are beautifully written (;

Why do I just lie awake and think of you?
I need some sleep.
Tomorrow I have things to do.
Everytime I close my eyes I see your face,
so I try to read, but all I do is lose my place

Am I obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you.
But I do all the time.
I do all the time.

I just had to call you up and say hello.
I know it's 3 AM.
And I saw you awhile ago.
But I still had this aching pain to hear your voice
To know your there I don't seem to have any choice.

Oh yeah. I'm so sorry I just had to wake you up.
I feel so lonely by myself.
Is this the way it feels when you're in love?
Or is this something else?
Yeah.

Honey,you don't know the half of it

You Gave Me Roses But They're All Just Made Of Plastic

2009-08-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

haha.i think people might get the idea i'm weird and blah,but whatever. This is actually a decent and quite nice video!Honestly,i think the song from Selena is much better than Miley cyrus,although miley does have a better vocal range.However,none of them can really compare with Demi Lovato. ;D omg,speaking like this makes me feel like i'm some disney fan.LOL. go watch the video!You'll like/love the song!

But I Want To

2009-08-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

Today was a rather happy day for me :D Teehee,i think Joanne,Yanlin and Vivien know why. :DDDDDD I left class at 12 to change to no.4 as i had to accompany my cute lil' part a's to some weird interactive battlefield poop. It was something like the one in spec course cept' that it was a newer version of the samsung omnia and this time it was longer.way longer dude. Initially i thought i'd go there and slack a bit,but in the end i went running/walking in a rather pace.haha. It was quite fun,despite my splitting headache (: And i know i'll lose weight from that! Happy. (;

I must stop swearing/cursing/cussing.It's a horrible habit!i must must must must stop it. i'll do it slowly,like i'll stop saying "f--k" first,then i'll continue to those really small swear words like "sh-t". (((; must perservere!

I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ u

Oh I Just Can't Take It
My Heart Is Racing
The emotions keep spinning

haha,i think the "fallin for you" part is so relevant to last year.(; the rest is pretty true. What a nice song <3

Cause These Things Will Change

2009-08-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

I'm super disappointed with my results.No,i'm disgusted at it.I must be really stupid or something.What the hell okay.All my subjects have a B average(usually a B4). Honestly,i feel quite ashamed to tell my tuition teacher.Worst of all,it's like I have tuition and they don't and yet they do way better.I must be really dumb or something.I'm so irritated.

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you're getting sick of it

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now from things they never found
They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down

It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in

If I'm a Bad Person,You Don't Like Me,I Guess I'll Make My Own Way

2009-08-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Frankly,i'm quite disgusted by the way some peopl are acting.People always say "communication is key"in the face of conflict but i think when they say that,they don't mean communicating by msn,they mean face-to-face talk.I think it's ridiculous (from what i say by your tweets) that you're obviously communicating by MSN and sometimes the statements you make are rather funny.Honestly,i think that i'd rather settle something by talking face-to-face and if i were the one in this situation i'd be so damn honest about it.Are you afraid of hurting her feelings? If you are,then that means you still think of her as a friend.But if you aren't then just tell her the goddamn truth.I don't get why people are so stupid.I really just want to go up to that person (the victim) and tell her everything,cause i've had enough of everyone's stupidity and immaturity.You can say that i'm biased,but i'm merely putting myself in that person's shoes. I don't want to backstab anyone that's why i don't want to utter a word to that person,but i think some time should be set aside for everyone to talk it out. This is shit in my opinion. Although it doesn't even concern me,but i'm feeling pretty sick of this constant cycle of conflict. I'm not clever or mature or whatever but please, Just Grow The Fuck Up.

suck it up and move on.

Zig Zag Side To Side

2009-08-18T07:26:00.000-07:00

EW.I just went to some loser secondary 2 girl's blog where she and her bf were proclaiming their love -gags- for each other.That's so disgusting dude! I mean maybe she's not doing it for the attention and blah,and it's meant to be okay since i or anyone else besides her friends are not suppose to read it,but honestly,it was like UHHH. As though proclaiming your apparent "deep, neverending" love for each other once is not each, those weirdos went to post a photo of them kissing. What the fuck. Give it another 4months or so and next they'll totally break up.

You can accuse me of being 'jealous'(ew i must have stooped down to such a loser level if i actually am dude) or you can say that i should leave them alone or that they're "just having fun",but omfg, it's so AA (attract-attention) Not like they're ugly or something, but i think it's rather stupid to say (in really bad english phrasing), "Bi...I miss you...2more days till i see you"
or even "Bi,i love you,no words numbers quotes phrases (blah blah blah) can measure my love for you". <<< EW. I don't really think their love is real okay, it just sounds so in the moment.And if they last,then good for them and i'll be wrong (boo hoo).

i bought a chocolate perfume today. imma loser. oh well. (;

I Say Fuck Em' Cause They Don't Know Shit

2009-08-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

Today I finally got my much needed exercise by playing Basketball at the court near Vivien's house.Finally doing something besides studying is rather fulfilling, I feel my fats slowly(very very very slowly) melting away.I really hope vivien wil invite us again! Her brother,Delvin(?) was super cute, i bet he was totally irritated when i kept asking him to hold me as I attempted to ride that 1/2 skateboard thingy.Falling hurts you see. );

Gah,when i got home i was greeted by infuriating incidents.Sometimes i really want to take back the words or the actions that i say or do.It sucks when i go all "i regret saying...." To me it's disgusting, I'd would never want to speak like this to anyone or if anyone did that to me I'd be extremely hurt.Gah!I must learn how to manage my anger(and weight)
teehee.

Physics paper today was horrible,though for the first time in 8months i finally understood most of the questions! Yay for improvements ;p Tmr we're getting back the e-math paper,which is super scary.I don't wanna fail or like get anything under a b3 for any subjects! >< Oh well,beggers can't be choosers,i'll just settle for anything over 60 :D hahaha. lying to myself consoles me.

fuck you.you selfish piece of shit.one day karma will hit you right on your fuckin' dick.And when that day comes,no one will save you.more like no one will be willing to save you.Go fuck away luh,like how you will soon fuck your life,money,everyone around you,freedom and love away. __

Do They Think That Walls Can Hide You?

2009-08-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

We've only got 1 more test everyone! (: yay. The week past unusually fast though i'm not complaining. Today's papers were relatively alright,not really difficult.But now i must tell myself to memorise for Biology,i can't just plainly read.We just have physics left! (: though that's like my worst subject since i can't do physics for nuts.

I'm watching Sweeney Todd : Demon Barber of Fleet Street. I think it's pretty alright,very wacky. Johnny Depp's singing is giving me goosebumps though. Jamie Campbell Bower is HOT :D He's totally english,capable of singing and acting. (((((: eyecandy to the max

teehee. i love cute english guys.

And I Don't Want The World To See Me,Cause I Don't Think That They'd Understand

2009-08-08T08:01:00.000-07:00

I'm utterly disgusted at myself.After _ _ _ _ _ _ _ told me about her and blah,i felt super sad for myself. Ew,i actually want a bf pls. Which in my opinion is such a desperate statement.That's why i'm disgusted.I can't believe i would actually feel this way okay.What the hell is wrong with me. Gah.I bet everyone thinks i'm a despo.This sucks to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Damn everything.I hate this disgusting feeling.And even if i want one,i obviously can't get any,cause i'm not pretty/cute/air headed like everyone else is.Shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.you stupid girl.

It's Not Fair

2009-08-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

When I saw you over there
I didn’t mean to stare
But my mind was everywhere
I wanna know you

You smile, never shout
You stand out in a crowd
You make the best of every situation

today i watched Up!You guys should totally watch it okay.It's like super fabulous.I absolutely love it. The best movie i've watched.(: haha.I love Russell,i think he's ultra cute. Go watch it you guys!

I feel really bored since i can't play fish a fish on FB. );

Deal

2009-08-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over
I'll love you forever, but now it's over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
Were spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl you make me such a rush

Now its over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now Its over

absolutely lovely (;

I Know You See Me,Don't You Know I've Got Body Control?

2009-08-01T09:24:00.000-07:00

I just had the best Japanese food :D Though the price was ridiculous,but it was totally worth it.
Teehee.
I refuse to look at the weighing scale tmr though.haha

Today i realised that when i get children i will totally give them cool names.Haha.Like i'll totally name them after constellations,cause constellations have the weirdest,coolest and most lovely names ever. I think it's pretty weird to think about this now,but a girl can plan right? (;

gah i hope that thing is settled now or next week please. Or else i'd have to go totally bitch again and be super direct to whoever.I mean c'mon people,no one is that stupid,everyone can see your hidden agenda pls.Hope it'll be fine and we all can be happy again :D

to claud: my dear i'm not angry at you ((((((; and even if i was,i'd totally show you my "anger".haha.Don't apologise already :D y'know i still love you luhh.teehee x)

The Sweet Escape

2009-07-31T22:47:00.000-07:00

omg luh. i think my previous blog post got some people to misunderstand who i was directing the thing to. >< erps......

How To Lose Friends And Alienate People

2009-07-31T07:15:00.000-07:00

well,i guess the title is self-explanatory,though it is from a movie.
In my opinion,it's quite stupid.All i feel like doing right now is laughing. Sometimes people just have no EQ.
Sometimes i just want to scream into their face "have a f--king heart"
Yeah,maybe i'm just trying to act "mature",like i know everything,but seriously, i can see what that is doing to us.Stupidity to the max.

Oh yeah,and sometimes people have to remember "time is money",so don't effin waste my time. I hate it when people waste my time.

maybe i just have stupid friends.

whatever luh.
People have no eq at all.

And It's Calling My Name

2009-07-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

There's this one quote/lesson that i learnt from watching Boys Over Flowers is that "You can regret doing something but never regret not doing anything"(not the exact words but the gist of the quote)I know you're thinking i'm a loser but if you actually apply this into life,it really is quite helpful.

so huayyee,you better tell yourself this : GET OVER YOURSELF.just go ahead with it,if you don't try you will never know what will happen.Just do it huayyee you stupid self conscious girl.

i've got nothing to do.
someone help me forget that loser.

Much Better?

2009-07-28T08:44:00.001-07:00

hahahaha. I'm laughing at joe jonas. While watching E news,i found out that Joe Jonas and Camilla Belle broke up.And they showed a clip of him crying on stage and getting all emotional )); awww.boohoo )':
It's ironical if you ask me. And he deserves it,with what he did to Taylor Swift and all.It's quite awful that i'm laughing at someone who's just lost his love,but honestly luh,if you betrayed someone before or broke their hearts cause you were a loser,then you'd get the exact same thing :D
what goes around comes around honey.
so suck it up joe jonas.At least now you know how taylor swift felt (;

tmr there's hist test ):
sad sad sad.though i've finished memorising already

Oh btw,you all must go watch the Mentalist! The main character isn't the nicest eye candy but the show is quite cool. :D gogo

The Truth Is All That I Can Hear Everytime You Lie

2009-07-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

I've been bruised and I've been broken
Can't believe that I put up with all this pain
I've been used and I was choking on the promise I would never fall again

I used to sing to your twisted symphony
The words that had me trapped inside your misery
But now I know
The reason why I couldn't breathe

'Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
'Cause you can't shut me out
And no i don't, I don't care what you say
'Cause all I really, all I really want Is everything you're not
Everything you're not not not

Your darkness was my weakness but it turns out
That it only went so deep
A meaningless diversion that is all that you
Ever meant to me

And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe

I want a gentleman who treats me like a queen
I need respect,
I need love nothing in between

I will not spell it out for you if you can't see '
Cause you're not worthy, you don't deserve me
And now I'm gone

to self : go tell yourself this (: you'll get over him in no time

Got Dynamite?

2009-07-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

Today i bought Demi Lovato's new cd(Here We Go Again) It's awesome,though the price is like ;o
However,I don't regret buying her CD cause she has an awesome voice and the songs are really good. I encourage everyone to buy it (; This album is so much better than the last.
I'm ridiculously tired now. ); tmr i've got to study for Bio!Gah.it's frustrating but who cares.

"you're so hypnotizing
you've got me laughing while i sing
you've got me smiling in my sleep"

it's a lovely verse from my favourtie song from her album,it's called "catch me" :D

Oh,and you all must go to Youtube and watch the Alice in Wonderland (2010) trailer! It's a lovely piece of work with amazing actors. Tim Burton really is a genius.He's a superb director. I must go watch that movie when it comes out! (;

Unusual You

2009-07-22T06:39:00.001-07:00

Today i'm 1 year older! haha turned 15 (; sounds old,yet,not so much. I realised something that i should've realised a long long long long time ago : I HAVE THE AWESOMEST FRIENDS.
I love you guys so so so much.Thanks for all your gifts and wishing...

The people i want to thank in no particular order :
Pui Kay
Jasmine
Xue Ting
Rui Chern
Wan Shing
Xiu Hui
Claudia(Thanks for the necklace! ILY)
Adlin
Pearlyn(OMG.your brownies are awesome)
Adib
Vivien
Xiao Yuan
Zi Hui
Yi Jie
Esther (YOUR CARD IS LOVELY.ILY)
Jermaine(thanks for the awesome card!!! and lovely chocolates)
Bernice(HAH i love the chocs)
Audrey
Ting Ting
Rachel Lee
Yu Han
Hui Hui
Li Hui
Fish
Jia Yun
Benedict
Sherlyn
Joanne (thanks for folding those many many starssss)
Belvia(thanks for the card! i was super surprised you made one;D )
Ming Yuan
Justin
Haran
Charles
Aunty Cindy
Samuel Wong
Cristabelle
Wei Yuan
Charmain
Rachel __ (the NCC one,i forgot your surname><) Brian Ryuto Justina and my family members cause they are lovely.esp my grandma and 2 ppl whose numbers i do not know cause i didn't ask them >< lol

if i forgot/left anyone out then i'm super super sorry. I love you guys so much.
and truly,it's the thought that counts.

and more thanks to pearlyn and claudia for making after LC so funn (;

Dark Secrets Revealed

2009-07-19T08:47:00.000-07:00

by the way people this post is only going to be about my review on Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

So yesterday i watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.Looking at the title you'd think the movie would actually circle around it.Well,it didnt,if i remember correctly the book didn't circle much around the Half Blood Prince too,so i can't really complain about it. However,the movie was rather disappointing.The action and thrill pretty much stops at the trailer.The movie was depressing,although the darker theme is applaudable,however,i feel that the movie was relatively draggy and long.The first part of the movie was way better than the second.Yeah,the book wasn't exciting and all action,but the least they could do was inject more necessary scenes.

I honestly think the romance bit was a waste of my time.Ginny and Harry's relationship seemed as develop as a peanut,thus,they shouldn't have added in more scenes depicting their relationship.Hermione and Ron's relationship seemed abit lopsided.However,i liked seeing how it blossomed,though nothing really happened in the end. Also,Hermione and Ron seemed far more present in the first half of the film.The second half they disappeared to god know's where,and concentrated more on Harry.I know it's supposed to go that way but i think it'd be funner with Harry's two friends.

Moreover, in this film,i think Draco Malfoy managed to surpass Harry Potter in terms of character development.Harry now is much less the same in the last one,whereas we can see Draco's character develop further and understand his emotional struggle now that his father is in Azkaban.

This movie didn't seem to 'click' altogether.Some parts felt disjointed while others were pretty random.But i must say that this film is way better than the pathetic excuse of a movie called Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.However,my main complaint is that this film failed to give anyone the "wow' factor that Harry Potter movies (HP 1,2,3,4) usually do.Also,action seemed to be at it's minimal in this film.The only complete fight,however short it is, is the fight between Draco and Harry.The ending "fight" was patheticly short and it portrayed Harry as being weak.That 'fight' was the most disappointing.

My absolute favourites in this movie are Draco and Bellatrix.The movie shows audience that Draco is indeed a nice person.Despite many people thinking that he covers up his weakness with arrogance,he is actually very loyal and not weak at all.Imagine falling from grace with your father being sent to prison,that's what made him interesting.However,Draco's role is like the film itself,disjointed.Some times he has scenes and then he doesnt.Which makes it rather messy. Overall,i'd pick Draco over Harry anytime :DDD Bellatrix is super cool.I think Helena Boham Carter managed to execute the role flawlessly.She made Bellatrix appear just the right amount of mad and crazy, and still inject some mischief in the character. It's rather fun seeing Bellatrix in this film. Her costumes were like ;DDDDDDD

Overall,i encourage people to watch the film despite my many complaints. You will be astonished once you see the scenes in which Harry sees Dumbledore's first encounter with Tom Riddle (Voldermort).That scene was brilliant as it was rather creepy and gave me chills,but still undoubtedly awesome (; Also the one with the screaming girl floating in the air was awesome too cause it was like a scene from a horror movie

But yes, Go watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince cause you'll feel rather incomplete if you dont :D

ha.

2009-07-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

i want to go overseas.........

And I'm Ready To Aim

2009-07-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

In due of the upcoming common test,i've made a promise to myself that i will study.I don't want to get horrid results like my MYE.
Here's what i must do tmr:
1)Do bio notes
2)Do physics 10yr series
3)not sleep for more than an hour after tuition

baby steps dude.baby steps.
I must make sure i do those things!haha.i must do bio notes cause i obviously don't listen during bio lesson.

I feel awful cause today i was really horrid in the morning.I guess i was just really angry from the lack of sleep.I feel most sorry towards Joanne as i was complaning non-stop to her.I bet she wanted to slap me both mentally and physically.but ILY joanne (: [though you won't see this cause you don't read my blog nor know that i have one]

If anyone actually reads my pm or notices it,you'd realise that all the songs playing are taylor swift's songs.That's cause she's awesome.I love her songs,it's really easy to relate to.

iwannagoaway....

Fuck you,Fuck You Very Very Much

2009-07-12T09:17:00.001-07:00

huayyee is a loser cause she doesn't reply tags o;

that's partly cause i'm really lazy.Then again,it's more work typing out a blog post then tagging a few lines.Haha.The mind of a looney person...

i feel quite loserish these few days.Been really pissed for no particular reason,my feelings have gone up and down.The worst thing of it all is i get really pissed off w/friends who do nothing to me and i follow it up by gossiping about them to Pui Kay.I feel horrible,like as though i'm a 2 faced person.Gah!my mood swings are...poopish

My ego is piecing itself back together(very very very slowly) finally.oh gosh,how i wish to get rid of this horrible lonely feeling luh (you know what i mean,yeah?) And i feel angry with myself.it's like i'm some desperate person with no backbone.As though i'm waiting for something that's never gna happen.it sucks.big time...

i wanna go out before common test comes cause i'd be buried under immense guilt(for not studying) and unopened books then.

Claud!i wanna go out with you (((((((((((((((((((((((((((;

Yeah and recently my msn thingy is on busy cause i really don't feel like talking to anybody. So if anyone talks to me and i don't reply....then sorry yeah.Just not into the talking and speaking mood lately.

I HATE SCHOOL.
and whoa it's 12.27 am. i should be sleeping.Joy,hello 5hrs of sleep.

don't mind the really vulgar title yeah.

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

2009-07-11T09:06:00.000-07:00

While my patheticly ripped up ego/pride is lying in a sad dusty corner,i'll continue to hope and wait.
haha.

Enough of that,just wna say that i really really really want to watch Harry Potter ;D Not cause of Daniel Radcliffe,his hair is complete poop i tell you,it's so nerdy,i preferred the long unkempt hair from HP 1-4. (: Oh well,my favourite HP characters as of today are Bellatrix Lestrange,cause she's ridiculously awsome,Draco Malfoy,cause he's quite cute :DDDD, and Ron,cause he's like the comic relief. I absolutely dislike,from the trailers and all,Ginny.I think Daniel Radcliffe and that actress dont have an ounst of chemistry.HP is looking nerdier and nerdier each movie. What happened to the (quite) cute HP from Movie 3 (prisoner of Azkaban).That was the movie he looked the cutest and most handsome luh! Now he's all nerdy and...short.hahha.However, i think Emma Watson gets amazingly prettier(and hotter) each time a HP movie is made.

While watching HP 2(on chnnl 5) and simultaneously watching HP 5(on HBO), i realised that i love the british accent even more.muahah.Cause IMO british people sound super smart with the accent.It doesn't really matter what they say.They could say "Bill Gates is poor and he invented the television"(obviously untrue,i'm not stupid) and they'd still look like the smartest people in the world.The power of an accent.

An interesting fact : During english oral,if you don't know how to pronounce a particular word,you can just say "watermelon" and you'd sound correct.LOL.An interesting fact i learnt from Carolyn during TLL.

Another interesting,yet irrelevant, fact : i realised i can type on a laptop without opening my eyes!TEEHEE.

i can't even see anyone when he's with me.

Just Another Lemon Tree

2009-07-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

I had CL oral today!it was pretty okay just that i forgot to say the "hou guo" and that i pretty much threw my self-esteem away speaking chinese to xiao yuan who laughed at it ):
hahha.
I hope i do well!

on a much darker note...
Today was another day that my ego plummeted to a very sad and pathetic level.Everyone knows i have a massive ego/pride(not really).This is why i hate to be the first person to initiate and conversation by texting.Cause the person can just choose not to reply you.It's rather demoralising when you think about.Mustering heaps of courage,though blinded by extreme happiness,and just be the first to text.And then after a few hours,that tiny strand of hope that maybe __ will reply you will just fade away.It's an awful feeling (though very one-sided)

This really sucks.
i must tell myself : let go

Gone Too Soon

2009-07-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

Wow,i just watched the rerun of Michael Jackson's memorial service. It was really sad.I totally balled my eyes out when MJ's daughter,Paris,spoke.After seeing so many performances and watching all the news,i realised that Michael has impacted,inspired and touched many people. It's sad to see an Icon just leave like that.He truly has gone too soon. I hope he's well whevever he is now and that his family and children stay strong (:

Okay,from today i will try not to swear and hopefully wipe out the word "eff-you-see-kay" from my vocabulary. I'll try. Though i doubt i'll succeed anyway. (a girl can try luh)

things happen for a reason.

Long Live The King

Full Frontel Snogging

2009-07-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

LOL.
i just watched angus,thongs and perfect snogging.This has been my erm....5th/6th/7th time i've watched it.Teehee.It's an awesome movie,that i'll never get tired of, cause the guys there are really super hot (; It's awesome.And the cast really can act.i love lovey dovey movies.Especially in the end when the mega hot dude says something that's really sweet to the not-so-good-looking girl. I'm such a romantic. (;
Aaron Johnson is.....wow. So darn hot. + the british accent. ultimate LOVE.
This movie makes me want to get a british boyfriend.(i must!) :D I love love love the accent. So much nicer than the american accent. Heh.
However,one of the most disturbing thing in that movie is that all the girls are all boy crazy and loved up.haha.they're like super desperate.But oh well,at least they got to be surrounded by mega cute guys.

i want a british bf. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

(good luck for my oral on fri.3more days!!!!)

let me get it

You're Been Hit By,A Smooth Criminal

2009-07-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

i have oral on FRIDAY.and now i'm having a SORE THROAT,to top it of,i've got a horrible COUGH
can you say 'unlucky'. ;/
i'm real worried about it D;
and i know my title doesnt really relate to the post but honestly, "smooth criminal" is my favourite MJ song okay!("anti gravity lean!")
haha.
f**k luh,i hate having cough.what if it doesnt go away.This will totally screw my already-gna-be-screwed-by-lousy-chinese-standard oral.i'm so worried.i want to do well,okay. Help me (prays)

So i'm Part A aps.w/charmaine and ruichern. Which is kinda cool.yet kinda ;/
i dont know what to feel luh.heh

My leg really hurts now and i have not finished chinese tuition hwk+chem wrkshts+filing+practicing for oral. HOW HOW HOW.
it's times like these that i wish the world would stop spinning.Just for me.I want this world to stop and go back.I know everyone says to embrace the present,but i don't want to.cause i guess i'm denial of the present.I keep lying to myself that the future will be different,but i know my complacency will cost me alot.It's no secret that i dislike where i am now.Everyone says i should be lucky that i've got this and i've got that.But i don't feel generally happy.You could say unappreciative,but what the hell do you know about me.I just want to escape reality.I dont want to feel pressured by everyone's expectation of me or what i should do.I don't want to feel pressured by the future,or that whatever mistake i make could affect the future.This age sucks. You're neither here nor there.This is the age where you are aware.Aware of what?You should know.Everything.I want to pretend i don't know what the heck is going but i do know. F*ck this luh.

i've said this before and i'll say it again ; just get me out of here.

Gotta Do What You Can

2009-07-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

I'M ALONE DDDDDDDDD; and fat.
I've got no one );
and oral is in 7 days.That's horribly fast.What should i do....
someone intro me to _ _ _ s.haha.can't wait till mon to come.at least i'll have smth to look forward to.

When You're Not Here With Me

2009-07-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether to be happy or not...
I am happy.Just that...
I know my voice won't be heard, but i hope it will be.

Jasmine don't hibernate already,later you become fat (:
good luck for oral,hee.

The Gloved One

2009-06-28T07:29:00.000-07:00

Wow,michael jackson has passed away.(like on 25th june)

You know to think that at our age we weren't even involved in the era where MJ was popular or where he had a new album.Yet,when he passed away everyone's like "R.I.P MJ" and there's so many tributes on facebook.

I think many of us didn't really give a care to MJ before his passing.But after he passed away, everyone was in shock i guess.He went so suddenly.

For me,the sad thing was that he died and didn't complete his final concerts.That's what saddens me the most.Cause if i were him,i'd feel this massive load of regret,which is horrible.And i feel really sad for his children.

(my goodness,i feel so sad even though i'm not even a fan!)

It's a pity.Even worse is that he will be forgotten in the next how many years or so.It sucks that an icon like him will one day be only remembered from those in this era by memory.Not the next.I dont think any other generations will know him.It's just like how elvis presley is to us.

25th June was a sad day.May he always be remembered as the irreplaceble King of Pop (;

R.I.P Michael Jackson
(1958-2009)

ps.he had the BEST moonwalk ever (: go youtube it

The Wilderness Must Be Explored!

2009-06-26T04:28:00.000-07:00

LOL.

i think i'm obsessed with the character Russell from the movie "Up".i think he's mega cute.haha. I must watch Up!Or else i'll be super sad ): Haha,this sounds like i'm obsessed with lil boys (sounds so wrong)

heh.

Y'know i hate guys with no balls luh.Like they obviously know what the hell is going on but they pretend to be oblivious to it.Maybe they have no effing idea but if that's it then he must be stupid.I hate guys who hurt girls,especially my friends.Yeah,maybe i'm sexist.Who gives a damn right.If i could i would totally scream at that loser to get an effin clue,i would then proceed on by kicking his nuts(if he's got any).That's me getting all unrealistic.But if i could,i would. I hate seeing this sort of fucked up people get away with it. Mdm Y*ng was right "singaporean guys are stupid"(and ugly). Maybe he has too much muscle and too little BRAIN.ah whatever luh.

I've yet to finish my school hwk! oh poop. Like i've written 1/6 of my english compo and i've still got 2more english hwk. I will DIE.but whatever right, i still got sunday to cram.hehe.

School's gna open soon!which sucks to the core.I was being horrible and wishing that it'd get cancelled but oh well,my wish didnt travel far enough.Poop.And worst of all,NCC day might get freaking postponed since students cant segregate.If it's like that shouldn't we just cancel school altogether!?!

Boop.Hi jasmine!ILY (;

Snakes on the Plane

2009-06-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

The only thing i have to say about the camp is : EW
Not to be a bimbo and all but it's ridiculously disgusting.The toilet stinks,i see squashed lizards,the washing place is pathetic and i'm having my p_r___.
what the poop.and i was having a horrid headache.
Thinking about this camp makes me miss spec course food.Thank goodness we dont have to sleep overnight okay.Or i might die of food poisoning or smth.
I hope they extend our schl holidays!it's like one more week to rest and do hwk.
Hope tmr will be better and i dont die from cramps or smth.
wish me luck(yes i'm talking to you,jasmine,my one and only loyal reader)
oh my,i'm breaking the fourth wall.

Something awesome to chew on, I'M GNA WATCH TRANSFORMERS (; on saturday.My mom booked the tickets.yay.
Now all i need to watch is the proposal to make my hols complete.
teehee.

Can someone stop the noise?

2009-06-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

i'm so damn irritated.
i hate being compared.
like especially when that person is obviously better than me at that subject.
what the hell okay.
you think putting me with her will make me better?yeah fcking right.
i think it's ridiculous.i hate this.i hate you.Stop talking down on me.i want to do well,but i doubt this is helping.
I'm going to quit.quit quit quit.you fcking heard me.
God,sometimes pressure doesnt make a person do well.It just makes the person worse. I know it.
i think it's retarded,i think it'll just make me way demoralised.
I hate this.
I know i'm gna flunk everything already.I'm pissed,stressed.
and there's chinese oral soon.wtf.i dont wna fail.shit this.shit shit shit.
Gahhhhhhhhhhhh
fck everything luh.Maybe this is just pms or something.But honestly luh,i cant take this anymore.It's too fucking stress.
i want to escape all this crap.

get me out of here.

2009-06-17T09:26:00.000-07:00

I'M VERY IRRITATED.

wth luhhhhhhh.you are so picky.wtf luh.damn damn damn pissed

anyway,dang,restaurant city ain't loading.must be bcos of jasmine luh!i bet she's mentally sending signals to block me from using rc. bleh stupid jasmine.(self reminder:tell jasmine that i've updated to maintain my 1viewer record)

lady gaga is coming to singapore (:

i've cut my fringe.it's BANGS!like really really super messeh bangs.hahah

at least i've updated.i hope pui kay reads this!cause she's been asking me to update.

Pokerface

2009-06-16T06:02:00.000-07:00

Well hello people (jasmine)
hahaha
i honestly dont think anyone knows this blog is alive,even i forgot my own blog address please.haha
So these few days i've been in spec course and in thailand...
I've gained 1kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the horror.
On a happier note,i bought this ultra cute coin purse which has a space ship on it! but the horrible thing is that it's got a scratch.wtf.pay 71dollars for this lousy quality D;
Restaurant city won't let me log in anymore so i cant get free ingredients! And my pet society pet is like so irritating.i wish it would dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.(like jasmine in rc)
muahahah
i've got nth to do...
i wna watch transformers and the proposal!
megan fox,shia labeouf and ryan reynolds are like my goddddddd ;DDDDDDDDDDD
Fighting Spiders is super interesting even though i've missed idk how many episodes already.The 3boys are like super cute(not handsome but adorable) esp the younger one
jasmine go turn your tv now!it's gna end at 930
I'm bored.
there's a 6F gathering on thursday.Don't know if i'm excited for it or like very sian about it.
Oh well,at least i get to catch up with people.
tmr i'm gna cut my hair.(omg the guy in FS is crying!!!!)
i need to cut my fringe.My sis told me to cut bangs but idk leh
jasmine tell me what to do since you'll be reading this is 3mins time...
oh well peace out people....

btw i'm a 2nd sgt.so are you jasmine!

outerspace

2009-05-28T07:17:00.001-07:00

hello dead blog (;

just a lil' caught in the middle.

2009-01-04T04:01:00.000-08:00

I think being ANTI Twilight is so super fun. cause twilight has so many flaws and i still have no idea why i liked it in the first place.

btw,the movie has ruined and tainted twilight's image,thus me being anti twilight(book and movie)

Bad and Undecided

2008-12-21T08:15:00.000-08:00

TWILIGHT IS A HUGE WASTE OF MONEY.

don't watch that lousy excuse of an adaption.period.
the acting was horrendous. thank god, cam(James) what's-his-surname arrived and saved the whole movie.
it was so boring.

Kristen Stewart(who i had high hopes for), looked like she was pissed at the whole world and wanted to slit her wrist any minute during the movie. Her acting was so stiff and was like "one note acting".

Robert pattinson (who i actually wanted to ignore my biasedness and watch the film w/o saying "edward is so ugly") had constipated acting. I wanted to slap his face during the whole movie. I didn't see any emotion, and even if i did it was exaggerated. Rob,dude, go work on your american accent please, spare us all movie watchers the pain of watching you speak or attempt to act

The movie itself was a drag, honestly,it was super super boring. You can accuse me of thinking "oh, they didn't do blahblahblah scene, that's why it sucks". but truth be told, i don't remember the stupid book anyway.One thing's for sure, the movie was unable to deliver anything that made the audience believe Edward and Bella actually liked each other.

The only real actors in this whole sad excuse of a film were people like Jessica, Mike, Eric, Jacob, James, Victoria, Rosalie, Alice and Charlie. They actually showed proper emotions.

On top of it, the stupid camera couldn't stop having bad close ups at the ridiculous actors' faces. My goodness, even if they wanted to do close ups, they shouldn't have cut off parts of their faces. Honestly, some of the close ups were retarded and irrelevant.

After watching the movie, i have concluded that any freaking kindergartner with glitter in his/her hand can become the oh-so gorgeus Edward Cullen. My god, let me pour some glitter on my body and desperate people with no goals in life except to worship their "hot" partner will call me "BEAUTIFUL". That ugly people or average looking people can become models. And That applying foundation on actors that's a totally different colour on their face, neck and ears can make them appear as vampires that have "pale" skin, and get me a job as a make up artist.

Thank god most of the reviews slammed Twilight.
That's Awesome.

I'd love to give a message to the next director of the twilight series : GO GET BETTER ACTORS. or at least allow your directorial skills to save the sequel.

Don't waste your money on twilight in the cinemas, go watch it on the internet. ;D

Ridiculous,Rihanna

2008-11-15T20:03:00.000-08:00

Rihanna was such a waste of my money.
I mean c'mon, i paid $125 for a 1h30min concert, and i got a 60min concert filled with faulty equipment and half-sung songs.
Well,it's not her fault the loser's in S'pore indoor stadium forgot to plug in her mic. -dies-
even rihanna was pissed.
I've watched many concerts and this is by far the worst. Rihanna was rushing throughout the whole concert and you'd expects like cool effects and blah. She didn't even sing much. And only had one change of outfit.
to top it all off, i had lousy seats. D;

Rihanna cheated my money.

oh and btw, kayaking is fun and i've so dark that i'm like dark chocolate.

308 is gna be my class for the next 2yrs.
doesn't make much difference from 204. lol.
my social circle is gna be tiny.

I Cut Myself From The Inside Out

2008-11-03T07:02:00.000-08:00

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW.

Everyone's telling me i should've chosen triple science with Geog.
But i chose(and got into) triple science with history.

Then there are the people who told me i should've chose double science.

this effin sucks.
i absolutely hate choices. D;

on a brighter note, there's the Rihanna concert on the 13th!
though i haven't bought the tickets, there should be seats.
they cost $180 dude. OM, the cost is like the equivalent to singfest which has multiple artistes. wow.

bye :D

i'll reply tags when i'm less lazy
sorry yeah.

You Got All The Puppets With Their Strings Up

2008-10-25T07:10:00.000-07:00

I guess everyone's into the Presidential Campaign news,eh.

if could vote, i'd vote for Obama. though this doesn't concern me or Singapore in anyway luh.

So yeah, the other night at 3am i was watching the Powerpuff Girls on cartoon network and made an interesting observation....

Has anyone noticed how John McCain resembles 'Mayor' from the PPG? i sure did

looks a tad similar right? or is it just me

or does Mayor look way younger and healthier than McCain that you can't see the similarity?

haha.

I think you can obviously tell i have absolutely no life for bothering to search for these 3 pics.

my aim for this holiday : TO continue to LOSE WEIGHT!

gogogo!

( i just ruined my blog page with the image of McCain) bleugh

Question Existing

2008-10-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

i hate people

get over yourself, flirt (;

Did you forget everything we ever had?

2008-10-17T03:11:00.000-07:00

this sucks
this sucks alot.
i hate you.

i don't.

no,i really don't

i hate myself.

let me forget.

please.

i don't want to remember

cause i know you don't.

don't think, that is.

you don't care

i don't want to as well.

help

i want to forget.

just like how you did months ago.

my exam results suck.alot.booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

oh well.

i want to at least be able to take 3science.

help.

let me forget.give up.stop thinking.overcome.get over.

(bout) you.

Never loved like this

2008-10-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

The things you say you make me fall harder each day
You're a trainwreck
But I wouldn't love you if you changed.

We are so different
But opposites attract
I hope you know me
And that I never look back
You're one of a kind
And no one can change this song of mine

Well I think I'd shared something special
And I'm falling like I never fell before
It's funny you said we'd never make it but look how far we've come
You're a trainwreck
But with you, I'm in love

(Demi Lovato-trainwreck)

sounds kinda familiar bout...

i honestly think Demi Lovato's album is better than miley cyrus's album and even the PCD album,cause PCD's one a tad boring.

Go listen to Demi Lovato's album. it's really good,the lyrics are amazing.
Go Go Go download it/buy it
(:

The Blue Curtain

2008-09-29T04:53:00.000-07:00

ahahaha.the title.

Is it that weird?
laughs

gahh. history paper & HCL are over ;D

6more papers left. yayayayay. i'm like freaking worried for maths and science luh. i don't wanna fail. i wanna do triple science. i need to do well. bah.

i think my life is a lie.
i don't know what's real or what's fake.
what's going to be broken, or what's already broken.
whether i'm making myself happy or the people around me
who's my friend or who's not.
am i still alive or already dead.
i don't know.
don't we all wish we did.
Tag Replies:

jasmine: update.
done.

plyn: I JUST FOUND THE SECRET PLACE THING HAHA
i guess you're the first one babe ;D

puikay :D: Agreed. Miss Singapore like anyhow choose one lor.
the selection wasn't even aired. hahaha.

[jon]: hello!=D haha tagged(:
thanks ;D

plyn: i read my sister's keeper up to page 14, then i felll asleep.
you suck. it's such a good book you loser.

jasmine: haha ms singapore. i dont even know who is miss singapore lol
so does the rest of singapore.

audrey: yo bimbo...linked and tag!
mmhmm. aren't you the bimbo. lol

plyn: hahaha, YOU'RE ON! and you're welcome ahha(: MEET UP MEET UP MEET UP! The one with the highest marks will treat!
LOL. sure sure sure let's meet up. ;D

lihui: YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO...MUST READ HAHAHA
lihui: I shall read The Pact soon.
it is must read babe!

puikay :D: Roar you Twilight betrayer.
wasn't i always ;D

Sea of Love

2008-09-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

i just finished reading Jodi Picoult's 'My Sister's Keeper'
wow. it was cool, and the book was actually really smart. And i think Jodi Picoult's describes in so much detail like all the emotions and surroundings. Also, the fact that she can tie up the book with each character's perspective is very impressive. The plot was great, and the end was unexpectingly sad. Overall it was a good book. However, i still prefer reading the The Pact because My sister's keeper was like a book that,to me, was fast paced, while the pact was kind of slow moving and you could actually feel the time in the book moving.

"You don't love someone because they're perfect.You love them in spite of the fact that they're not."
Isn't this quote touching? i read it in My sister's keeper.lol.

There's another really nice line, but i can't seem to remember the page. Oh well. haha. i feel like re-reading My sister's keeper just for the fact that i love the way Jodi Picoult describes the emotions. lol

omg,i'm turning into a bookworm.

i so gotta find a new book.

We had Mid autumn last friday. I guess it was better than what i expeced but still somewhat boring. Also, instead of going around to sell stuff, i was stuffing my face with food from the stalls in the canteen. I think 208's food were like cheap and nice luh! The chocolate crispies from our class was nice but sadly, it took me eons to chew it down due to my visit to the dentist an hour before. ):

i feel guilty.

and Ms Singapore is so ugly,seems like any lady who thinks she's pretty can become Ms Singapore. Dude, where's our standard.

i'll reply the tags some other time :D

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

2008-09-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

lol. hangman was fun today.

i totally wasted one whole day on the computer and sleeping and i did absolutely no work. i feel guilty, useless and really lazy. i hate the guilt. i so need a new book to read before i lose it dude. I think i'm sorta done with the 'surreal' world for now (eg. twilight,new moon, harry potter.) and maybe done with the chic flick kinda books. (eg. the undomestic goddess.. [or any sophie kinsella's books for that matter] ) My mood has changed to reality-ish fiction, contradiction much, haha. I mean those type of Jodie Picoult books.

speaking of which, Jodie Picoult's The Pact is seriously a nice book. It's really interesting and the love between the characters were described in so much detail that it made them real. I think it's one of my best read's yet. dude, it's better than twilight/new moon/eclipse/breaking dawn.
Lol. Although i'm biased towards the book but hey, whatever dude, its' great ;D
i recommend you to read it

i try to make a sound but no one hears me.
No, i can't stand the pain. No, i can't make it go away.
How could this happen to me?

Tag replies:

plyn: HAHHA OKAY! AHHH, SORRY SORRY SORRY! ): and I miss 6F too, more than anythingggg
You had better be sorry. haha joking. well at least it was nice seeing the guys, you and Mr Lim. thanks for making me come in the end.

Clauds: AHHHHHHHHHH I WANTED TO GO BACK OMG OMG I LOVE 6F ):
I love 6F too babe ;D nvm there're always other chances

Clauds: Haha I found that quote on some random person's Xanga x)
i think i read it in breaking dawn or smth. LOL.

jasmine: blah huayyee im not a loserrrr
Hell yeah you are jasmine :D

esther: hi you *****! i'm so sorry bout tdy, love!
LOL.slut. Nah, it's fine dude. Love you too ;D haha

plyn: HEYYOH!
plyn: Heetee
Thanks for increasing my no. of tags dude. lets meet up after eoys' and have a movie date dude!

Together We Cry

2008-09-08T08:13:00.000-07:00

How come it seems like it's just me.

i want to feel like i exist, that i'm alive, i'm real.
that whoever i'm screaming to wil eventually hear me. i hope.

(i'll reply the tags tmr.promise.)

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

2008-08-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

Today was honestly one of the most retarded day i've ever experienced. I guess i had truck loads of fun. haha

So t'day was Teacher's Day.and we had ACES day before the whole celebration. We had to walk through clementi woods park (?) While we were walking, Jermaine,Bernice and Hui Hui started singing. And since i was walking with Jermaine, i got caught in the crazyness. I guess Qilin joined in after that, she screamed the high notes. omgoodness, it was retarded. I think the people in the HDB flats were woken up by our noise pollution. i think Pui kay recorded it on her phone(?), i guess we must have sounded retarded, but it was uber fun.

Pearlyn cheated my feelings. She persuaded me to go back to hpps when there was like no girls there. I had to ditch Bernice. (btw i'm freakin uber uber sorry, ILY) When we got there, the guys were messing with mr lim's table. Lih Khuang is an immature slut ;D his voice hasn't even matured,loser. We didn't talk much to the guys though, so it was kinda pointless going back. I couldn't remember much less recognise Hong Jie. He looked so different, his hair was like...long and not pineapple-ish. Oh the first and last thing Joshua said to me was "Ha!I'm taller than you" stupid loser. Mr Lim was wearing the jersey 6F'06 gave him. cool luh.

"Eh you have boyfriend already?" -Mr Lim
"No, do i look like the kind of person who would have one. Why would i have one?"-Me
"cause you are so cheerful"-Mr lim

LOL!that was damn funny and random. Mr Lim was(and still is) a great teacher ;D

I guess everyone looked sorta different but yet,still the same. There was this sense of distance and yet, i could remember the memories. It's so different, they're so different. I guess we're all real different now. As much as i miss the past, i guess the future is where all of us are headed now. I could see how much everyone has changed, their attitude, looks. but, it's amazing that we were actually in the same class 2years back. And the memories feel so unreal. Cause i really missed our class. I guess i could say that while everyone was moving on, i wanted that period of time to last forever. Still hovering in the past you could say. But as much as I miss the past, now, i guess i can really say that i have moved on. like everyone else.

Ihopeitstaysthisway.

On a brighter note, you should so watch Blood Diamond. Like on DVD or the internet. cause it was released last yr luh! but yeah, it's a really good movie. Though it's rated nc16 for violence but hey, the storyline was clever. the acting was awesome. Well, y'all must be wondering why i'm actually advertising or i bothered to watch.(no, it's not cause LeoDicap stars in it. He's like old now. bleugh) I was randomly flipping the channels and then HBO was playing Blood diamond, thus, i watched it. Go watch it. ;D

Finished reading breaking dawn. At least it was less disappointing than i thought it'd be. I still love Jacob ;D

btw. i'm off to m'sia for the next 4/5 days idk
dude, i know you'll miss me ;D

Tag replies

puikay :D: Haha. Sitting with Jermaine a retard is very irritating eh?
Nah, entertaining more like.

MELINDA<3:hello huayyee:D
Hey babe

MELINDA<3:hello(: it's okay<3
Thanks,you know ILY!

That's Just the Way we Roll

2008-08-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

i haven't posted in eons...

So i'm sure practically everyone watched the closing ceremony of the Olympics on sunday. (i'm such a loser for only blogging about this now) I think the way Beijing performed was real good,y'all know what i mean so i shan't elaborate.

&. then there was London....

Which was actually really hilarious. I understand what they were trying to portray, but seriously dudes, it turned out pretty funny.

I was watching it with my family in my parents room so we were all being a tad biased against London. Nonetheless, the comments that my family (or mostly my parents) make are super retardedly funny.

"Beijing people will think 'how come London all black skin people'-chuckles-"
(my mom)
"They are trying to show they can't board the bus properly."
(my dad)
"OMG,this sucks" (me)
"VERY sucks luh." (my dad)

it may not be funny here luh, but it was that night.
-laughs-

Monday 25/08/08
Nothing interesting happened. Got back my english test results which totally sucked. I got an effin B3 dude. I was supposedly sitting with Desmond, but in the end idk what and everyone changed places so i pushed a table back. and now i'm sitting with Jermaine and Esther (: yay
hahaha. Bernice and Jermaine got me Royce Chocolates(: for my very very very belated birthday. omgoodness, I LOVE YOU GUYS ;D I actually had some photos of the chocolates but my phone's being a loser and isn't allowing me to upload stuff. which totally sucks luh.

Today 26/08/08
Bernice is sick! I miss you dude. Sat with Jermaine and Esther again, which is fun luh, Jermaine is damn entertaining. Guess nothing happened today as well, except for the fact i learnt how to activate my bluetooth after 18minutes, with Jermaine's help. hahaha

I can't play Sudoku for nuts.

THANKS BERNICE AND JERMAINE ! ily(:

Tag replies:

Lihui: Hmm. You can link my LJ.
Linked (;

[jon]: haha whoa exams over so now can relax eh! haha and tagged(:
Yep, but then there's EOY's which totally suck. Thanks for tagging so much dude!

jasmine: hey i finally came to tag! and i so miss you as my seating partner lol.
Finally.. Ofcourse you should miss me :D

germaine: hi huayyee. :]
Hey germaine, tag more often yeah?

puikay :D: Roar whatever. YOU WIN. A for Geog. D:
Only for geog luh. the rest are all lousy.

Clauds: Hahaha it's a nice quote ^^
Yep, where did you find it? hahah

jasmine: haha puikay so loser.
Hahaha. Like you!

[jon]: haha its my friend who has scoliois not me=p
Yep, i knew that when i tagged dude. haha. thanks for tagging.

plyn: Heetee, I linked you already! (:
Thanks babe. tag more often yeah? haha

No time for tears

2008-08-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

(i actually wanted to have a full length post...)

i hate it when i talk to my parents on the phone.
totally fcked up luh.

i hate assumptions,misconceptions, and sometimes, false hope.

(i'll reply the tags tmr)

I feel oh-so Glamourous

2008-08-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

Wow,i got back my history and geog marks. it proves the world moves the opposite direction in my universe.
i was really disappointed for my history,i really really studied, but in the end i didn't get what i expected of myself. this sucks. On a brighter and unexpected note, i didn't fail geography. I didn't even study properly for geog and i manage to achieve an A. Due to this fact i'm really confused on what combination i should take next year. gahh

End of Ct's! thus, i went out with Bernice. I think whenever i go out it's always with Bernice. Haha. Planned to re-watch The Dark Knight (i watched it already but she hasn't). But jp is such a loser and doesn't have good movies. Tried again at westmall but it didn't have it either. Ate at westmall and bought my panadol. Strange enough, everytime i go out with Bernice i'd have to go guardian or watson. dude,what's up with that. I think we circled the floors of westmall till we got tired and decided to go home.

Getting back Math's marks on friday, i'll pray i don't fail. though i know failure in maths is inevitable. ):

Ms Nornie said that we might change our seating arrangement. wonder who i'll sit with. Though i bet Ms Nornie won't remember to change anyway. "Treasure your time left with your seating partner..." -

I'm gna gain so much weight on friday.

Tag replies:

bernice: hi huay yee. i tagged! haha
Thanks bernice. go tag more often. :D

plyn: HELLO HUAY YEE! I JUST GOT MY TABLET BACK!!! LINK MEEEEEEEEE(: AND I'LL LINK YOU
Haha. Linked already babe. You'd better link me (;

RH: BOO! LOL. your cts are not over? mine are *gloats*
You are such a loser. whatever man. good luck for you results then.bleh

puikay :D: HEHE. Thanks to me k. Cos I rock too much. ;D
no thanks to you. xD and no,i rock so much more than you.

lihui: Yes it's awesome even the posts are pink.
hahah,thats good for you since you like pink. hey,what's your blog address then? ;D

MELINDA <3s Huayyee!:HELLO HYX! <3 THANKYOU (:
Sorry i wished you like uber freaking late babe. I love you babe.

The colours were all wrong;

2008-08-18T20:16:00.000-07:00

i totally screwed maths. i expect to fail D;
goodness this sucks. ;/
one more paper then I'm free. then there's EOY's
so now's ICT and i'm uber bored.though the real boredom is in maths
but whatever.

(i want to go somewhere.just anywhere.Anywhere but here)

I have friends in Holy Spaces.

2008-08-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

Tonight i made new best friends, Maths guide for secondary 2 and mathematics tutor from casco. omgoodness, common test has killed my brain D:

urgh 2more papers. and i'm free (;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELINDA TAI.
i love you to death!<3
i know you won't see this, but i still love you ;D

2008-08-17T05:38:00.000-07:00

after reading the play of Oliver Twist for the second time (wow, thats alot) i have concluded that Oliver has no guts and that the Artful Dodger is cool. yay dodger(:

Oh by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON. i stayed up till 12am to wish you dude,thank me.haha.

Tag replies:

clauds: FIRST TO TAG! Finally you have a blog, love you dearrrrrieee.
Haha, after much persuation i actually made one.haha. i love you too.

[jon]: hahah hey tagged:)i'll link ya too?
thanks.linked :D

XFallingHail: hello, tagged.
thanks sam (;

rachel: hello huay yee (:
hi rachel.thanks for tagging.

lihui: Hello this blog is awesome cus there's so much pink.
haha.didn't realise there was so much pink well at least it's not that flamboyant or flashy.

[jon]: haha whoa thanks!(:I'll probably do the same next year hahah
no problem dude, have a happy birthday;D

2008-08-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

It was all pui kay's idea for me to actually create a new blog. wth. pui kay, i did it ;D

2008-08-16T03:24:00.001-07:00

hello stupid blogger.